Mental health is a topic that I am incredibly passionate about, and I strongly believe that we should talk about it more openly and not consider it a taboo, which we sadly still do. Words like bipolar disorder or schizophrenia are still words that people are afraid to say out loud. I really want this to change. I am writing this essay because I want to nudge you into talking about mental health and mental disorders. Don´ t treat it like it’s a deadly disease. You never know who might be dealing with something. There´s nothing worse than saying that being bipolar equals being crazy or “psycho.” I urge you to talk about it, and I encourage you to let it make you feel uncomfortable. I am trying to accomplish this with the poetry collection that I have been writing for the last year and a half. But I am skipping way ahead of myself here. Let´s rewind.
Ever since I was a child, I struggled with finding something I was good at. I have always felt this immense pressure from people around me (mostly my peers). Whenever someone asked me the most feared question I could ever think of- “What would you like to be one day?” I didn’t know how to answer it. I always went with something that I knew would sound “good.” It was like this pretty much from elementary school until my senior year of high school. My classmates at every stage of my education seemed to have it all figured out. Some of my classmates wanted to be lawyers; the other was just incredible at French… but me? I just couldn’t figure it out. Except I knew exactly what I was good at, but I felt like it wasn’t enough and that it could not possibly be a talent worth pursuing. Therefore, I didn’t really explore it at that time. I mean, yes, I started writing my very first stories when I was 7 years old but never thought much of it even though people around me seemed to like it a lot. No one really encouraged me, so I didn’t feel the need to do something about it. It was just a hobby.
"That was the moment when the poems started to unravel in front of me. It made me realize what a great therapy writing poetry actually is"